입술 (#^.^#)

2011-09-04T01:59:00.001+08:00

BLOODY FUCKING PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT. MAN WHORE.

I swear all ties are sever. I don't give a damn if I don't see your face, ever again.

2011-08-28T21:50:00.001+08:00

What I wouldn't give to be Wonderwoman.

2011-07-02T00:13:00.000+08:00

Source: tumblr and www.journeythroughlovee.tumblr.com

“Romance feels like I want to spend the rest of my existence with you forever, like you’re the most important thing in the world to me, like when you smile my world lights up and I’m not angry and alone anymore, like I have a reason to try that isn’t my own self, that a single gesture from you makes me feel loved, that I don’t have to take you to fancy restaurants and buy you jewelry even though I’m poor, that I can just cuddle up on you and you don’t just say “you just want to have sex” that you’re not afraid to see who I really am, that you want those things with me too. Romance is that everything we do, no matter how little, big, mundane, or extreme is at least as special as the last. That’s romance to me, that’s what I feel when I’m with you, that’s how I see. Its not about these books and movies where everythings ideal, where he takes the princess away or she leaves her beau for a guy who has nothing but a big heart, and the ability to focus to write love notes (cute as it is) its about the truth, about the pain, the joy, the bliss and ecstasy of living life together. Its about seeing everything together and eventually being one. Sure cutesie things are nice, but that’s not the point, that’s just the garnish on the plate. That’s why parents who are really in love don’t do all those things. Romance is the family, the house, goodmorning kisses, night time cuddles, hugs, glances, annoying money talks, car rides, the air they breathe in each other’s presence. I’ve seen it every day between my parents and my friends parents, that’s what I imprinted on. The sweet smile as he walks in the room and they way she cuts food and he walks over and pecks her on the cheek, the way she smiles like she can see the beauty of the world even if she can’t. The way they fight and ten minutes later she puts a hand on his shoulder and he rubs it with one of his thumbs before kissing it. Romance is when I come over at night, and I can’t stop smiling at you, and even if you don’t notice it or just go “what?” and continue being on your computer, and I just half giggle and say “nothing”. Its when I fall asleep next to you and feel safe. Its also the little things when we hold hands, the massages, when we pet each other, tickle fights, when we do things to annoy and bug each other. Even when you fight with me because for some reason that I can’t explain I let you and I can’t stay angry at you nor do I want to. I just want it to get better and for you to stop being so unhappy, so frustrated and angry at everything.”

2011-06-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

What am I to do.

Romance only stays for so long..

2011-05-07T00:25:00.001+08:00

http://twitter.com/chloekloee

It gets a little addictive when you have something on your mind or are really really bored.

Guess which am i?

2011-04-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

There shouldn't be food around me when I'm upset.

I thought it wasn't like that, but it is. I don't even know how it came about.

2011-04-20T00:34:00.003+08:00

So many things happening, so epicly.

No words to explain everything, so.. hush-hush!

Been awhile since real blogging, ah, what to do. No pictures either~!

This was a week or so back? Orchard with Estee ^^ Spent quite a lot @.@ and the poor soul stood for 45 mins after a few hours or walking around in wedges while I did the ZA make-up trial. She's sucha best friend :D Always there.

& this was the shorts I had my eyes on :/ 63bucks though. Vintage-y ~

:D we went on a date! Had Manhattan's Fish Market instead of Seoul Garden (I couldn't accept the fact that the place was full, gosh, my beef! >:/ )

Lovely day ^^

So was today! Ho boy, my stamina is in existence afterall. Tampines to Changi ~.~ Now my knees hurt :(

But he got it worse :/ you'll recover soon love ^^ (L)

2011-03-21T19:51:00.003+08:00

...But all I hear is rain drops, wonder when the pain stops
thought I had the key to your heart I guess you changed locks....

2011-03-19T01:29:00.001+08:00

2011-03-18T23:08:00.001+08:00

Her body!

You make the sun come up ~ Oh boy ~ (;

2011-03-18T21:57:00.002+08:00

I wish to grab a bag of chips, have a couple cups of ice cream and then just think and cry.

But two things stopping me -- one, my fats; two, whatever's left of me that's not pathetic.

Someone along the way told me I was pathetic. True dat. I admit, I am. Someone along the way told me I cry too much. True dat. I admit.

I gotta stop man, my gates of emotions are jello. ~.~

Considering how the world is now - starvation, tsunami - how the hell can I be so weak..?

Psh.

2011-03-15T22:21:00.001+08:00

The guitar's facing up then down then up then down.... whuuuuuuuut?

Love the song.

2011-03-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

How am I to cope..?

2011-03-13T12:06:00.001+08:00

2011-03-07T23:46:00.002+08:00

Even after a shower, I'm not even the slightest bit cool. Banging a wall, slamming my keyboard. I'm losing it.

One thing that blew it all up was the third party.

First things first, I never expected you to obliged. You aren't my dog. You are entitled to your own damn opinion. I never intentionally forced you to say yes. It was all joking on my part.

Unfortunately the third party mistook it, I presume. I know not how she spoke, the tone, what content but it probably went like this:

"So what if she's your girlfriend? Must go listen to her? Can't you do what you want? Does she not understand you need the job? Why she do demanding?"

Yes, I presume that. I'm confident it was close to that. Here's the thing, she does not know me. She would not know I didn't mean it. To her, I was a demanding bitch.

Secondly, I did not expect you to just say "I don't feel like going". It's someone's work, project, assessment, worth marks. It means something to me. I apologise if you don't know what I mean nor understand why I'm being such a hardcore ass for helping a friend.

If you are to say if the roles were vice versa with some other people, those nuts wouldn't have cared if you had an actor/actress or not. Yes. I am that stupid to feel such strongly for wanting not to screwed up.

That's just it. I don't care if people screw me up, at least I learn. I don't want to be mean. I don't want to be childish; treating others how others have treated me. I have enough karma after my ass for that, thank you very much.

Please. What if someone you expected to help you pulls out last minute, won't you be screwed upside down? I'm sure you know what it feels like to be doing a project that doesn't go according to plan.

Thirdly, don't even think I don't understand. Don't. Because girls understand more than guys to some extend. They know what you mean, but the thing is they are talking about something else, but you are still blabbering about understanding.

If I had not understand, I would have been a spoiled bitch and demanded that you helped my friend. If I had not understand, I would have yell in your bloody face for not following what I want you to do.

You don't want, just say it, straight to my face. Not take one whole night to say no. If you felt I wouldn't have understand, EXPLAIN it to me right on that damn spot. Because all you said was you wanted to go down and check if money was needed for portfolio. Nothing else. No other explanation.

... The last thing I want to say is not your fault. Its not the third party's fault either. Its me.

It got on my nerve knowing that she had a fucking say, that she put herself into our business. AND the damn thing is she couldn't even be accurate on my behaviour, not knowing if I was joking or not.

Did my end of third party have any say in our relationship? Did he butt in? No. He didn't even want to join us for Black Ops. Imagine that.

Its just me, not being used to having family members being concerned in private matters, matters of the heart.

Enough said. I would have thought you would know how to be around me by now. Apparently not.

2011-02-25T21:57:00.004+08:00

I saw the most AWESOME thing at Uniqlo while getting someone's present.......

This ^

and this ^

Heck yea Imma get all the tees :D

Who knows if I can actually get them all....

I'll try~

2011-02-22T00:47:00.002+08:00

Honestly, blame a girl for trying to comprehend.

What's the problem with just talking about everything and going all out to understand what the other is trying to say?

Is it that hard to want to try to communicate effectively?

What's the point if is all talk and no action: you want this you want that, but yet no effort.

Gosh! I hope I freaking drown in my sleep. I pray my drowsiness kicks it, FAST.

2011-02-20T23:32:00.001+08:00

2011-02-20T00:18:00.003+08:00

Its about damn time I rid everything that relates to you. Good riddance for bad history! (Y)

So eveeeeeeeeeerything goes out the window while I use a rocket launcher to make sure everything bursts into flame. HAPPY DAY!

^^ I had dinner with Z's family, awesome home cooked meal!

Aw, there are these times where I feel so inspired to blog but I lose the feeling so quickly :( I hope I get back to this blog soon, don't wanna let it die~

2011-02-19T21:30:00.001+08:00

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2011-02-19T13:39:00.000+08:00

2011-02-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

WE ARE AWESOME PEOPLE!

2011-02-15T00:53:00.001+08:00

Valentine's was great! :D

2011-02-11T22:42:00.006+08:00

Ling eh..?

Haahaaahahahhaahaha. Pot calling the kettle black :D

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Its almost Valentine's but there's this bugging test on wed :(

But I'm almost done with my 'mystery' :DD Kinda wasted A LOT of paper ~.~ pfft, not meant for arts and craft.

2011-02-08T22:45:00.001+08:00

2011-02-07T22:02:00.003+08:00

2011-02-07T22:02:00.001+08:00

2011-02-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

Mm mm mmm! Sexaye.

2011-02-01T00:39:00.002+08:00

We had it all.

Charming ^^

I miss this song (:

2011-01-29T01:50:00.001+08:00

You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for you ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her. Because you don't destroy people you love.

2011-01-28T23:34:00.001+08:00

He's forever da bomb~

When you're at the top, you're at the top.

2011-01-28T21:41:00.001+08:00

2011-01-27T23:07:00.002+08:00

I'll make it without you tonight.

Haters gonna hate ~

2011-01-25T14:04:00.001+08:00

2011-01-25T12:48:00.000+08:00

Motherfucker. Really.

2011-01-25T00:04:00.001+08:00

2011-01-24T23:33:00.003+08:00

HELL YEAH. You're perfect <3

123 is a great number my dear one.

Its been 10 months since I knew you, and in 15 mins, I would have been with you for 5 months or 123 days ♥ Don't you even feel you're less than perfect, you are perfect in a sense, to me.

We've quarrel bad, always on the edge. Yet we managed to pull back. I don't wish to say that its destiny or fate, whatever. I believe in you, and I believe we'll be able to make. Even if we can't, I know we treasured each other so.

I love you Z (: I'll see you tmr!

2011-01-24T22:32:00.002+08:00

Its nice but pretty sad :/ Warning: nudity +lesbianism.

I find Amanda Seyfried really gorgeous. She may look bimbotic, but she isnt. Gosh~ And there's one more, Letters to Juliet - Gooooorgeous too ^^

2011-01-24T01:22:00.003+08:00

Every 13 of each month, I know my life is gonna be so much better. (: I'll make sure of it.

Your first love might be true love, and true love might wait. But who the hell knows what your true love will do while waiting, no?

I can truly say, things might get better. I'm positive. It'll be better with Z.

2011-01-23T23:09:00.001+08:00

I've got to hold this out, alone.

2011-01-23T18:10:00.001+08:00

I never even once tried to forget you, its a task that's worthless to me. Thinking of you is a precious thing to me as breathing, so can't forget your love.

2011-01-22T01:12:00.000+08:00

I realise how hard it is to handle me.

2011-01-13T00:15:00.002+08:00

Do I have some sort of depression at night..?

I'm considering going for 'Synergy Leader'. It means being one of those leaders who take care of a certain business school course and lead them in cheers and such. Can I even do that? Oh right, my night and my day is different. Well.. considering.

On another note, I can suppress certain feelings now; jealousy for one. Because I realise it wouldn't do any good but destroy the day, yea, finally I realise it. Yet, it doesn't help much somehow. Miscommunication + misunderstandings.. is this what it is? Or?

2011-01-10T23:29:00.002+08:00

O Level results are out ~ Well, congrats to those who did well, and don't be so down to those who didn't!

Kinda nostalgic :/ Can still remember the scene of how I received my results and the reaction. Ah~

Surprise! I got off my butt to blog ._. okay no, I didn't get off my butt but I got off the procrastination train. But I had to, being irritated made me want to blog.

She's not someone I know at all. Not personally, not indirectly. I just know her, why? ~~Cus (real) sluts travel.~~ I mean word travels. It started quite a while back, introduced by my girl's boyfriend, a dumb one indeed -screams perv-, but anyway.. Don't mean to offend him.

She was introduced and duh, comments were passes. Me? Amazingly, I didn't say anything. Because I knew why she did what she did, no point pointing out anything. (Sadly, I can't be that calm right now)

Then after a week or so, my girl tells me something happens. The dude added.. uh B. I'll name her B. My girl asks him why, he said for fun. For fun...? More like for your... Nevermind.

Then within the week, mutual friends appeared on B's friends' list. How did I know? I checked, yea, I was bored so I checked. Her photos weren't private at that time, freeeeee for all porn addicts. -ah hem- anyway.

Time past and here we are. I didn't remember her all this while, no. I just happened to see that someone had something to do with her, so I re-check the profile to reaffirm my suspicions.

Holy moley, same dudette. It was B. It was epic I swear ._.

Now, she privated everything, so guys would have to add her to see her oh-so-delicate photos

-pukes- I have to apologise, my hate was not instant, it was escalated.

Major shudders.

It seems B has brains afterall, scored a 15, but sadly she wanted mass comm as her course.

You know what I say...? Don't come to TP's mass comm or I'll bitch slap her. I mean it. Don't bring that time of shit into mass comm. Fuck no.

Quite unnecessary anger/hatred? No, you see, you won't understand unless explanation is given. Thing is, I won't give an explanation ^^

I'll try to blog more often, at least I won't be so bottled up and burst up everywhere and anywhere ._. Work is STILL piling.

Oh, and I could just slap myself for Sunday. I went for Teen's Model Search, guess what? I chickened at the door. Damn screwed and I just couldn't handle the mixed emotions.. :/ Man, I have issues. Big ones.

2011-01-04T00:18:00.001+08:00

I know this is pretty dead right now, buuuuut I'll be back tmr I swear!

2010-12-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

I'm paying for the internet.. pfft. 100 baht for 30 mins.

Sigh, it was a bad idea to come online. Now I have so many sad things to think about. It doesn't help that half the time is stoning in the van and walking about --- too much time to think. And you would think at night would be a load off my shoulder, but nooooo, I think somemore. It. Sucks.

2010-12-16T21:52:00.003+08:00

I don't want to pack.. :/

Packing just makes it real, despite that it is very real, that I'm gonna go for 7 days. The worry now would be foolish when I think back, I know...

But I don't wanna pack. Its been ages since us girls have met, and some of us aren't doing good. :/ Sigh.

And there's Z.. :(

Its true that its partly because of laziness that I don't wanna pack, but the sadness makes up for most of it. Ah.. and the nights aren't good too, what with multiple weird dreams every single night.

2010-12-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

Countdown: 3 more days.

Oh won't there be peace?

2010-12-14T22:54:00.001+08:00

Pfft. I do dislike Yoona.

2010-12-12T14:30:00.004+08:00

I'm almost finished with Friends ~ :/

Kinda did a lil research and it turns out they are all in their mid 40s I guess~ Man, its so weird to see their young faces while watching Friends and then googling them to see their current state.

BUT! Good news it that Courteney Cox is in Cougar Town the series, no wonder she looks familiar~ She's downright gorgeous too! No doubt Jennifer Aniston is gorgeous too, but I still prefer brunettes with beautiful sparkling eyes! And well David as Ross is married I think? Matthew as Chandler is.. somewhere out there. Matt as Joey is making a comeback in a series called Episodes I think. So is Matthew, in Mr Sunshine?

Jennifer Aniston

Matthew Perry and Matt Leblanc

Courteney Cox

Matthew Perry

2010-12-11T20:41:00.004+08:00

Christmas is coming!~

Retro much? :D

hee :D And I want Victoria Secret perfume too~ And liquid eyeliner, purse, that $60 wedges at Image Turn, not sure if its still there :(

Anyway, I'm headed to Thailand on the 18th, and exam's right before that so yea :( now cant be in holiday mood.

:D I bet I'll be able to buy tons of presents there ^^

But does anyone knows anyone who would be alright will lending me borrow their DSLR for my trip? :( Doubt so.

I kinda need to use it just in case there are good photos for my individual project which is due 4th Jan :/ 'In between the hustle and bustle of life...'

Man I need ideas!

2010-12-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

Is that the way things are..?

Really..?

2010-12-01T12:34:00.002+08:00

Apparently NeYo has this.. trakc list thingy where the story continues ^^ Hee! I'mma post everything here!

1. Champagne Life
2.Makin' a Movie
3.Know Your Name
4.Telekinesis
5.Crazy Love
6.One in a Million
7.Genuinely Only
8.Cause I Said So
9.Beautiful Monster
10.What Have I Done its the Libra

He's soooooooooooo fine ^^ Write his own song, sings so damn well & smoothly and dances well.. oooooh he's so sexy!

2010-12-01T12:04:00.001+08:00

"Today, I get to share with you the visual companion piece to my new single, 'Grenade.' The song is about loving someone so deeply, and the pain of knowing that the person you love does not feel the same. The actions in this video serve as a metaphor, and should not be taken literally. I am aware of the power of visual media, and I encourage everyone who watches this video to understand that it is an artistic interpretation of the song, and not something to imitate." -- Bruno Mars

"Yes I could die for you baby, but you won't do the same.' That is part of the lyrics, and its freaking strong.

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had
Bruno Mars Grenade lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/bruno-mars-grenade-lyrics.html

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

2010-11-30T19:30:00.003+08:00

How do I do this?

I feel like such a disappointment. To say that the phrase is true, it kills me inside. Yet, the difference is that the actual meaning says that the person is doing it for fun but I'm not.

It hurts. The feeling is so damn complex, I can only use the word 'hurt' rather than explain how it feels.

Now there's just this ugly side left.

I can't lie to myself, its never going to be the same. How am I going to cope?

2010-11-27T01:36:00.001+08:00

The photography tutorial was great somehow.

& you, you were low to say that.

We surprised WY today ^^ Pictures up soon I guess!

2010-11-25T23:07:00.004+08:00

Happy 3rd month Z! (:

I hope you like the songs! Your card was very sweet ^^

Tmr's photography is, "My Friends Are Good Looking!" I'm bringing estee, muahaha. So excited!

P.S. Doesn't the weather smell like poo?! WHY!?

2010-11-24T22:33:00.003+08:00

My father's back from Thailand.. -grumbles- Not that its bad and all but its the nagging and complaining.

Blah blah blah.. short dress, complain. long dress, complain. I did sweep and mop, but its like nothing. I tried to keep that washing area clean.. but >:/ grr.

& I'm not getting enough sleep, I don't like it at all.. I just want to sleep peacefully, is it that hard!

Mm.. WY's birthday is coming (: Just hope she won't be too upset :/

OH YEA!

Do visit www.twenty7avenue.blogspot.com! :D The clothes are nice + modelled well too, price pretty reasonable (: GO GO GO GO GO GO GO!

2010-11-24T14:58:00.002+08:00

Awesome. (Click to enlarge)

2010-11-23T15:04:00.002+08:00

I've been playing L4D2 the past few days with Z, hee. Always end up getting scolded for shooting him at least once every 15mins ._. In my defense, he got in my line of shooting kay! Hur, but in his defense, my aiming sucks ^^

Anyohhow, my girls hip hop course ended awhile ago. I think imma try the hip hip open class this Sat, $18 per class.

Well, I called Andrew yesterday and he said he would call me back in half an hour ._. and its been... 24 hours. Oh well. I pray that he forgot and not something else :(

School work is piling, yikes :/ don't like the feel of it. I don't. Sigh~

Urgh, had a hard time sleeping last night. Even though I slept pretty late, tried so god damn hard to close my eyes and sleep. Yet my mind just WON'T shut up.. keeps yakking and yakking and YAKKING.

Psh, shut up brain. I have enough time of my troubles in the day, why must you torture me at night too!? I took a pretty long time to sleep.. I guess it had something to do with sleeping alone, in one house. Creepy to me, yes.

Even in CCN day, when Jolene (She's the new girl!) asked if I wanted to go to the 'haunted hospital', I downright refused. :/ me and my fears.

Even I am getting sick of them.

Ahhhhhhhhhh, there's no meaning to life.

2010-11-22T13:41:00.002+08:00

Does anyone know themselves anymore?

You won't know or understand someone until you know their dreams, their inspirations, their failures. If you are able to identify all those, you would be able to empathise with how they are feeling.

My days are just so draggy; there isn't any meaning. Even though I try to find meaning, it would without fail, escape my grasp. -pout-

Oh wait, I just made a call and did something for myself! Just hope I would be free to actually go do it.

Ah.. this year went by too fast. Too fast.

Is it because its ending, that's why I'm feeling like this?

2010-11-22T12:21:00.000+08:00

Can you see it!?!?

2010-11-20T02:21:00.000+08:00

Today was CCN day!

I've been MIA for awhile now, mm. Well, I'll come back soon, I hope~

2010-11-13T10:54:00.000+08:00

My morale went down a whole damn lot.

Estee, do take care yes?

2010-10-27T01:35:00.009+08:00

-YAWN- *checks time* 1:37am.

Eyes are on their way to closing down .. Considering the 'tiring' night due to the nightmares (eurgh) + after helping Waiyan --- I should probably go soon...

......

NAH! Gonna watch my Big Bang Theory first, muahahaha.

^^ anyway, I kinda somewhat I believe taught a lil' of E maths to Amirah today, at SP. Yes. SP. Tampines to SP. Yes. Believe it ._.

BUT! The time went pass quickly because of all the random snapping of pictures Waiyan did with my brother's DSLR...

.. yea I brought it along Z wanted to have a little fun experimenting with all the functions, since we're going to be having photography as one of our lessons. *jumps up and down* PHOTOGRAPHY!! How cool is that!?

I read through one of the assignments, and wooooOOOOooooOOoah, we get to pick someone whom we find interesting and does something that makes people sit up and go, 'WTF' :D

... & yea, Waiyan ended up snapping retarded photos of Z and I. Really retarded ones. The camera would be taking a few photos in a few seconds, shutter speed or something, I have NO idea, but yea.. we would be moving and she would be attempting to take unglam pictures .____.

Pft, sucha tyrant

On the bloody MRT xD

And I was late meeting Amirah.. wooooops At the end of the day, we, yes we, got pretty worked up over one graph question. @#$%.... Or at least I did ._. It pissed the hell out of me that I could forget how to solve such problems so fast, grr.

I was pretty grateful Z was there

heeheeheheeehehhe!

& Yes, I realise I'm spamming the emoticons (n_n) awwwwwwwwwwwww, its a phase :D It'll be over soon, or maybe never. Hahaha.

HOMYGOSHOLYCRAP, WHUUUUUUUUTHEF!

That's beyond cute!

2010-10-26T00:47:00.002+08:00

Okay! I shall not be lazy anymore (: School's started, gotta start learning to be more consistent. So I'm starting with blogging :D

It was the 25th yesterday, and yes, our 2nd month.

I admit it. It was tough, still is. But somehow we managed. When we quarrel, it was as if a North pole and another North pole were forced to face each other. But the precious happy moments make these sad moment worth it.

I've said this before, and I'm repeating it again, just so you would remember ^^

I felt a difference when lecture started today. You and I, we were separated; different rows. Yet I didn't feel insecure, an entirely different feeling from during the first sem. Is this feeling good..? (: I do hope so.

My point is, there is a difference. In everything. How we communicate, how we talk, how we share ----- there's just so much more. You have your ways, I have mine; you give in and well.. I tried to give in. Hur :x

I seriously will knock our heads together and explode if there wasn't any difference, after all the head tearing x.x No kidding.

I know I'm hard to deal with~ pffft. I'm a handful huh?

I do know that certain times I could have actually done something to appease your anger or at least do something that could have made the situation so much easier, yet I didn't do so. Its just I am.. :/ But I'm trying! O(^.^)O

I appreciate your patience with me, your tolerance, your giving in, your love and so much more~~~

I know you will swing me high, and continue even if I'm screaming and asking you to stop, because you LOVE to bully me Eventually you stop just because you know I will make a face at you the moment you stop, and weirdly enough, you said you like the faces And I know no matter what, you wouldn't want to intentionally harm me and I'm safe with you!

Happy 2nd month and 1 day, my love!

2010-10-25T23:16:00.001+08:00

I need to talk.

2010-10-24T23:13:00.003+08:00

This is one of the clearest video I found!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150126028818849

I hope everyone can see this ~

Grrrrrr. TOP is freaking beyond sexy -faint- Even being there wasn't enough :( a glimpse here and there~

2010-10-19T03:02:00.005+08:00

I was watching that, before trying to get to sleep~ Its nice :D

and I found this song! Which I heard on Gossip Girl, but I couldn't find it. Its nice!

Every time you walk away or run away
You take a piece of me with you there (x2)

Oh it seems I'm walking right to your door
With my hearts still resting, looking for something more
Are you ever going to see everything you mean to me?
I'm trying really hard to believe

Every time you walk away or run away
You take a piece of me with you there (x3)

Nothing feels right when I'm left here on my own
Left last night
It seemed like I waited too long
Are you ever going to see everything you mean to me?
I'm trying really hard to believe

Every time you walk away or run away
You take a piece of me with you there (x2)

Come back to me
You smile and you make my life complete

Every time you walk away or run away
You take a piece of me with you there (x6)

Its mostly repetition! But I like it ~

2010-10-17T00:09:00.005+08:00

"I mean if I end up with Dan, a part of me will always love Nate. And If I end up with Nate, a part of me will always love Dan. So, I don't know. I guess I just need to find someone who gives me what I get in both of them"

- Serena from Gossip Girl

Is it so..?

2010-10-15T16:35:00.005+08:00

This is probably my last time blogging in this office :( aw man. But! No more rushing and waking up early.

Okayokay, today was beyond lax! I bet its because its friday and all.

Its 4:36pm and I just came back from lunch 5 minutes ago! Gosh. Andrew McMillian said he would invite me to lunch today with his kids, and I literally thought there would only be these people. But as it turns out, it was 8 adults + 2 kids, exculding me.

Awesome or what?! It was @ Sentosa Golf club! -rambles- Its a Japanese restaurant, Nogawa.

Man! We had cabs. DUH! But.. I imagined like a quite place like Starbucks, somewhere near.... Not freaking Sentosa! But :D who's complaining?

It was pretty awkward for me, but the atmosphere for them was like as if it was a normal day out and not in the middle of working hours ._. pfffft. Friday must be a magical day.
Andrew was late thus we waited, for.. an hour? (Andrew reminded me of someone who's my father's friend, more on that later.)

His kids are beyond adorable. The first thing I noticed was their hair :x blooooond! Their hair looked so soooooft and it was! heeeeeeee (: There was Jake and Flynn (?), the smaller ones. There was a girl too, but she looked 20+ so yea, I assumed nanny at first til I heard her address Andrew as "Daddy".

OHOHOHO! HOMYGOSH! Andrew has a nickname! Its.. Kiwi! :O he definitely does not fit the kiwi image, if you know what I mean. He's kinda the burly type.

The extreme right chef was actually the one who attended to us. Yes, I use the word attended. Why? I'll explain later.

The first dish was raw fish. Eurgh. Not a big fan, AT ALL. But.. well that environment, I just had to swallow it down. Though I did bring up the fact that I don't eat raw. Still ~

The tuna was manageable, the scallop was N-O-F-R-E-A-K-I-N-G-W-A-Y, annnnd I just couldn't bring myself to eat the remaining two unknown fish slices. Thus I handed it to the guy sitting opposite me. He was kind enough to finish it for me ^^

The second dish was soup. "Tuna Belly Soup" actually. When I heard it, I was going "ohholynopleasespareme". But I tried it and surprisingly, I like it! But the fish had a slight fish taste... Well tuna taste actually. Despite the soft and chewable meat, I kept picturing me biting into an actual fish. Eurgh. That made me want to give it up all together :/ Finished it in the end!

The third was freakingly grossing me out yet making me feel compel to finish it ._. It was Japanese beef, I forgot the full name. It was wrapped llike a sushi, like just cooked beef as the wrapping and inside was vege and slightly raw beef. The rawness made me cringe :/

The fourth dish was tempura, I think. It was pleasantly nice. I think the fact that I can trust such a restaurant allowed me to actually stomach such food that I don't really like. & also because I was among adults, I felt so small :(

The last was ice creaaaaam. The green tea one is nice :DD

That about concludes it. Oooooo, there was sakae too. The wine is it? I'm not certain what it is. But yea, they said that I had to, just a little. (Okay, I cleared up my age with them. And yea I knew it! They thought I was in Uni.) It was just a somewhat small glass shot. But :( eeks, nononono I don't like it..

The chef keep pouring the wine(?) for Andrew even though the glass wasn't even half gone. And his kids were running around playing. They even got to request for what they want to the chef. Cool huh?

Its like Andrew knows the chef so well they are on such a good term, and I believe Andrew is rich, so yea. Win win somehow? He's somewhat a regular customer and such.

My father's friend who's pretty rich, in Thailand, has the same thing happening for her. She can walk into certain stores/restaurants (especially the one she frequents often) and people would recognise her -jaw drops-

It was pretty awesome being in her company and her twin girls day after day long ago. The feeling was just freaking good~

I still remember there was this go-kart place that was part of the restaurant and it was my first time ever. I like it ((: Though my drift pretty much failed compared to my bro.

Anyho, they paid and we waited for a cab and zoom. Back to office, after 3 hours. Muahaahaha.

And Andrew said he will called in 2 weeks time since he's gonna be out of SG soon, if I don't give him a call. I'm debating whether its possible for me to work and study. Mm.

Shall discuss with my gfs, just for help. Love says I shouldn't. :/

That's my wall paper :DDD I have him staring at me from the screen next to the one I'm typing. Sooooooo hot :x

2010-10-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

Somehow I'm going to miss working at Tudor :( as a receptionist.

Well, one of the so called bosses, Andrew McMillian asked me if I could 'take care' of his kids. In a sense, bring them out but I have to speak to them in mandarin, since they're in a mandarin school. His accent was really strong so I had to listen pretty intently to his words. I do remember the words 'beach club' and him asking if I swam.

Anyway, nothing's confirmed. Gonna have lunch tmr with his kids tmr, since its my last day ~

And yes~ I'm officially 17 (: I will blog about the celebration tmr, when I'm done spending time with my love ((:

-PROMISE-

2010-10-13T11:45:00.002+08:00

-pouts-

Happy birthday to me :D

I'm suppose to be getting ready.. but :( I don't have anything to wear. I've been staring at my closet for so long.

Sigh! I guess simple will just have to do. :(

2010-10-12T20:21:00.003+08:00

^^ I'm happy -prances around-

2010-10-12T09:45:00.001+08:00

All I need for the next few days, is rest. Rest, and understanding..

2010-10-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

Tell me.. what can be done?

2010-10-11T12:42:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, a birthday is depressing.

In a sense that days before the birthday, you encouter times where friends are 'busy' or they sincerely are busy, so are your loved ones.

I know someone, who feels that birthdays are important. But I'm the opposite, especially when its not that big of a deal within a family. -shurgs- you grow up, character and all, depending on the life you grew up in.

I know I won't truly be happy, those jumping for joy kinda thing, for a birthday because of the restraining. At least not til 19. -huffs-

Pfft, now I feel like going to Australia. So mundane :(

2010-10-10T21:57:00.002+08:00

13 birthday wishes/wants..

#1) I wish things to be fine. To be alright. Everything to be clear. Somehow for things to work how.

#2) Answers.

#3) Clear answers.

#4) Proper dancing.

#5) Get that.. job.

#6) A pet! But I know I can't have one, and I don't want one. But I wish I had one.

#7) Polaroid camera.

#8) Having the will to work when I have the time.

#9) Be whiter :(

#10) Grow taller :(

#11) Become skinner :(

#12) For him to be happy and at peace. (:

#13) ..... shh

Thats about it, more or less.

2010-10-10T13:26:00.001+08:00

April Rhodes

One less bell to answer
One less egg to fry
One less man to pick up after
I should be happy
But all I do is cry

Will Schuester
I cry no more laughter

April Rhodes
Oh I should be happy

Will Schuester
Oh why did she go

April Rhodes
I only know that since he left

My life's so empty
Though I try to forget it just can't be done
Each time the doorbell rings
I still run

Will Schuester and April Rhodes
I don't know haw in the world

April Rhodes
To stop thinking of him

Will Schuester

I should be happy

April Rhodes
'Cause I still love him so

April Rhodes
I end each day the way I started

Crying my heart out

Will Schuester
(Start and end each day crying)
One less bell to answer

April Rhodes
One less egg to fry one less man

Will Schuester
(One less man)
To pick up after
No more laughter, no more laughter
Since he went away

Will Schuester
Since he went away

April Rhodes
Since he went away uuuuh

April Rhodes
A chair is still a chair

Even when there's no one sitting there
Oh, I'm not meant to live alone
Turn this house into a home
When I climb the stairs and turn the key
Oh please, be there
Still in love with me

Will Schuester
One less bell to answer

April Rhodes
Each time the doorbell rings I still run

Will Schuester
One less egg to fry

I got one less man to pick up after
(No more laughter)
No more laughter, no more laughter
Since he went away,
(Since he went away)
Since he went away all I do is cry

2010-10-08T15:57:00.004+08:00

See here, when someone comes along and inform you that your meeting has arrived, you don't just IGNORE the person!

Good grief, acknowledge her so that she can have a pease of mind that you know your meeting is here.

Pfft. Oh, yea, I'm working as a receptionist. Cheers!

I keep hearing the clients saying 'Cheers' or those working in the office. Angmohs huh~

I'm at work, blogging, and because of the two screens I have facing me, I have Ed Westwick gazing at me too. :D

Anyho, the latest client got me laughing when he started speaking. His companion wanted English tea, and he was kinda strolling way behind, taking his time. He reached the lounge a minute later, and having asked if he would care for a drink...

He looked at me, eyes wide, like it was the most amazing idea at that point of time and said, "Sure! -emphasize- Tea sounds FANTASTIC! -big grin-"

Hawhaahawhahaawhaha. A giggle actually slipped out from me :x

Oh, you know, being around people who speak English with an accent, man. So pressurising that I can't help but shift into accent mode O.O I'm just afraid they feel I'm mocking them or putting on a snobbish front ._. So I refrain from time to time, speaking properly....

OH! ANd I've been plastering a smile on my face every time I see anyone :/ Plus everytime someone says 'thank you' for opening the door for them, I would say 'your welcome'. After awhile, only thank yous and your welcomes punctuate the silence @ the front desk. Sad huh?

Even the cleaning aunty is really really polite; every single time I tell her what drinks and how many cups to prepare, she says thank you. So my conversation with her, 3/4 is all politeness. Phew.

On the upside? THE FOOD AND DRINKS :x there's Lays! heeheehe.

Anyway, its almost 5:30! And @ 6, its B's 2nd month belated celebration (:

P.S.: I miss Z (: And it was kinda heartwarming to see him gobble the sandwiches ^^

2010-10-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

Small sandwiches were made, but last minute, having realised I didnt ask about any preference of ingredients; I panicked.

And viola.. things always hae a way of going wrong around me. Neither of the ingredients were to his liking.

:/ sigh.

-gobbles all the sandwiches all at once-

No. I'm kidding.

2010-10-06T20:33:00.002+08:00

Is there no decent company in that line of work, who's honest at all...?!

God.

2010-10-05T22:19:00.004+08:00

He went to the point of sking me if I needed him to talk to whoever's on the phone, asking if it was a guy, with that harsh tone + raised voice.

The whole 3 minutes or so, made me realised how real everything is. Because he interfered. I wish I had the guts to blurt everything I have on my mind.

I managed a portion. About my eldest brother, because he was comparing me and him. I managed to bicker with my own point of view. He asked me to study, and not be concerned about problems with 'friends' and not affect my studies.

He said this, just in case it was a boy on the line, 'You go poly to study. Not worry about problems. Study first. Don't do foolish things. Look at your eldest brother.'

I shot back, as calmly as I could with tears and shaking body, 'We are two different people. There's no need to compare. Compare for what?'

I don't know how to sort everything out. The quarrels. The fact that he interfered, compared and blatantly told me he wasn't going to be pleased with me if I was in a r/s.

I'm really, lost right now. I don't want to be 17 next week :'| I don't........

I wished I had the guts.

2010-10-02T01:27:00.002+08:00

Gay guys (?), well.. actually to me, only Neil Patrick Harris is hot. Man.. -squeals-

2010-09-28T23:31:00.003+08:00

Estee and I went out to 'shop' @ City Plaza plus dinner @ Pizza Hut ((:

Keke, the guy below --

-- sang 'Fall For You' by Secondhand Serenade. His words, because I asked him to sing anyone of the songs from the list, "Fall for you then..? But if I fall for you after the song, I don't know ah. Kidding kidding."

We agreed the people there were really friendly and their service was good! He has a good voice too ^^ 3 of them were singing 'Just The Way You Are' by Bruno Mars behind the wall that separates the kitchen and the dinning place. Pretty nice ^^

& I tried on that dress from Dress Culture. Where Delia got her maxi :D

2010-09-28T01:45:00.001+08:00

I CANT FUCKING HANDLE THIS AT 1+ 2AM. GOD.

I wanna break every part of my body and just when I'm about to recover, Imma break them again, that is the pain. The pain of not being able to clear things up, the pain of not being able to hear properly. This pain leads to me wanting to jump out the window. I'm frustrated. I'm frustrated because it doesn't have to be this way, YET IT FUCKING IS THIS WAY.

I'm eating a load shit of crap @ this timing. Keep this up and my somewhat able to be seen cheekbones will disappear under the chubbiness.

2010-09-27T01:55:00.008+08:00

-hearts-

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Nothing good is gonna come out of that, its gonna get slightly ugly.

2010-09-27T00:19:00.003+08:00

There's always another story behind what you see.

Where's the point in believing you know someone, yet you don't talk about things that bother you, to the person straight on?

At times like these, I just don't get it. Don't get the whole thing. The whole damn thing.

Some say, friends don't stay long. Some say, Boyf don't stay long. In my opinion, considering the universe as it is, karma and all? Neither stays.

It depends on who you believe will stay.

Real friends don't judge. A true boyfriend won't leave.

Real friends don't point fingers, despite repeated mistakes; those pardonable ones, they forgive. A true boyfriend learns to forgive those pardonable mistakes.

Real friends know in their heart, whom their real friends are. A true boyfriend believes in love between him and the girl.

Anywho.

I realised its either me or you asking. Sometimes I don't want to bother, just to see where it would end it.

And where does it end up? Well, probably me being blamed partially for it.

Man. I'm sick of it.

2010-09-26T17:17:00.007+08:00

Jay Park's Fan Meet @ WaveHouse Sentosa!

The pictures' quality is bad :( But the memories stays in my head :D Aw man, awesome awesome day. Despite the 3 hours sleep, plus 14 hours of queuing.

The singing -- angelic. The dancing -- mindblowing. The real life person, BEYOND EXPECTATIONS.

I was literally watching his muscle ripple >< -flies to heaven- Plus his abs! He flashed it once, + ripped his top off and was half naked for about 3osecs. His killer smile! -melts- I'm content! So so so so adorable and talented!

However, there was a lil' disappointment :/ It was as if the fans, us, were a blank sheet of paper: everything he did was out of habit and duty. Its sad :( but the truth. Though I know he loves his fans (:

(I feel as if it was a dream and its still saturday ><)

Videos not mine -- found them on YouTube.

Anywho,

Z came to pick me up after the fan meet (: Jeans and all, hot (: Thats the reason the girls were looking yea?

Thank you for being willing to meet me that late and sending me home! -HUG- :D

2010-09-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 1st month lovely ((:

Thank you so much for the ring -hearts- and the days with you! :D

2010-09-23T21:29:00.003+08:00

Argh, all these mosquito bites :( it itches. Grr, must have been the beach + the night + the stuffiness.

but ((: It was worth it for the experience.

Happened yesterday (: Z and I headed to Changi village to eat; we headed to his grandmother's place first. Damn damn damn deserted -shudders-

Anyway, the walk by the beach + the talking + the bird watching + the food (((: absolutely great! Hee :D

The bird watching..? Sounds weird huh, we saw 3 birds that looked likeeeeee this..

Thats the Great Hornbill. Mm :/ not sure its the same, but I'm positive it was a hornbill, regardless which species.

We joked that we were actually at the birdpark/beach rolled in one. Zoo soon kay? ((:

Anyway, we had dinner after the walk and that's that (: Every day is a great day!

Today is no exception, but that is tmr's story :D

2010-09-23T00:27:00.001+08:00

"Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me.
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy."

2010-09-20T01:25:00.001+08:00

Hurts.

2010-09-20T00:49:00.002+08:00

I suck at consoling people okay! I can't do it properly, at all.

And the fact that you tell me its nothing, it left me dumbfounded, when I can actually tell from your voice that something's wrong.

.... Damn it.

What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? What can I do?

Okay that message just told me to butt out. So there.

2010-09-19T14:35:00.001+08:00

As much as I dont want you to, I want you to.

I'm confusing myself..

2010-09-19T12:17:00.002+08:00

The result of well.. last night: swollen eyes!

Anyway, I've been thinking and I really dont know what would be appropriate. What should I do and such..

Its as if I ran out of ideas. :/

2010-09-19T00:16:00.001+08:00

I sound weird now ._.

2010-09-18T13:04:00.002+08:00

I thought we could play card games.. Then I thought again.

I shouldn't be a bother, nor risk you falling sick too. So, I told ya to stay away -- boring and sick. Who the hell would stay around for that..?

Anyway.. the morning wasn't so bad. No dreams, nothing. Yet so hard to get up. Being sick has a good side though, can't eat chips and those crap.

The 18th..

2010-09-17T23:15:00.001+08:00

I eat when I'm upset, and boy.. am I hungry now.